On his fourth death anniversary, late actor Irrfan Khan's wife fondly remembers his remarkable talent and captivating persona. Sutapa Sikdar, Irrfan Khan's wife, took to social media to share a post in which she envisioned a heartfelt conversation with him, had he still been with us today.

She dropped a picture of her with Irrfan Khan, and penned, “It’s been four years and three days since Irrfan left me. Four years? A feeling of guilt sweeps through my body. 4 years we have LIVED without him, added with sadness, fear, hopelessness, and severe helplessness. And then I thought, but still, I lived with him more. I knew him since 1984, so that makes it 36 years of knowing him more, and definitely till I die, I would have spent more time with him than without him. And then I thought, if he were with me physically in 2024, what would have been our conversation be like? Because that’s the most I miss.”

The conversation: 

"He would not have looked up immediately( never did while he was reading)

Me: He is sooo good.. I loved his performance.

He: Accha? Who?

Me: Arre yaar Diljit Dosaanj .. he is so not structured and all heart.. he makes me feel.:

He: (now looking at me) Accha .. you think he is that good !!

Me: Yes!!! You and he should work together it will be magic you should play a Sardar again after quissa and two brother kind of story...

He: hummm (his phone rings ) hey dinu (Dinesh Vijayan) yaar yeh sutapa Bol rahi hai Diljit dosanj bahut Accha hai ..:

Me: Accha nehi bahut Accha ..

He: Haan yaar let’s do something .. let’s do something on punjabi sufi poets.. main dekhta hoon Aaj chamkila OR

He would be listening on his headphone as he enters .. Arre yaar sutup kya likha hai irshaad ne ..( he loved Irshad kamil) ufff khatarnaak..

suna hai tumne vida karo .. what a song .. He and his manager manpreet are sitting and he is saying get me a Malayali film. I want to work with this director where Fahad Fasil is there. Yaar I am forgetting the name I am telling you if Bollywood doesn’t mend its way etc etc .. I will do a Malayali film! This is what mostly we will be talking in 2024."